By Contributing Writer, Kelly Crawford (Original post written in 2010)
It was a simple prayer…but I couldn’t stop sobbing.
During church this morning, during intercessory prayer–just like every Sunday, a prayer was offered up for the expecting moms in our church, of which I am one
The prayer went something like…”Thank you, Lord, for the incredible gift of immortal souls whom you have given us to bring up to love You.”
At that moment, the weight of my responsibility met with my overwhelming feelings of inadequacy, and I began to sob.
“It’s too big, Lord…it’s too hard”, were the silent cries of my heart.
And as unexpectedly as the tears came His voice…”Remember Moses”.
I flipped through my Bible after the prayer, and scanned through the call to Moses in Exodus to rescue God’s people from Egypt.
Moses pleaded with God three times–even while beholding the miracle of the burning bush–that he was not capable.
The first time he said…”WHO AM I?” (3:11)
The second time he said…”BUT THEY WILL NOT BELIEVE ME OR LISTEN TO ME.” (4:1)
The third time (can you imagine his desperation)…”I CAN’T EVEN TALK RIGHT!” (4:10)
And God’s answer to Moses was, “Certainly I will be with you.”
God doesn’t call perfect people to do His work (praise Him!)
He chooses the broken, the imperfect, the weak, so that His power can be revealed. (“Therefore I will glory in my infirmities, for when I am weak, You are strong.”)
And God says to this mother, and to you…”Certainly I will be with You.”
Most definitely. You can be sure of it.
I do feel, as Moses must have, that my task is too much sometimes. And God knew the task was too much for Moses…if Moses were given it to do alone.
But God said to Moses…”I AM that I AM”.
And He is for us…
All He wants–all He has ever wanted is a willing, obedient heart. That is the only vessel through which He can show forth His power.
“Father, make me a willing vessel, broken as I am, through which You demonstrate Yourself to the world.”
Kelly, thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. I believe you are on to a powerful tool for spiritual warfare. Psalm 78 warns God’s people not to forget the works of God lest they become like their fathers: “a generation whose heart was not steadfast, whose spirit was not faithful to God.” May God keep you and us steadfast, believing that the God who spoke and the water ‘gushed’ and the birds ‘rained’ in the wilderness, will make abundant provision for us.
I think failure is only possible when we try to do it on our own either by ignorance (we don’t know the Lord is there to help us) or because we refuse Him.
Many times I think of those women that have killed their children and I question why. Many times I think I hear the answer “They did not take My help. They refused My help. They decided to go on their own.” How can anyone do anything in this world without the Lord?